lotus_flowerI started this blog over a year ago with the intention of bringing awareness to depth psychology, and making it more accessible for those unfamiliar with the field. In all the articles, I’ve attempted to bring a deeper understanding to current trends, psychological symptoms, and human suffering. Over the past 6 months, I haven’t been as diligent in my posts. Each time I’ve sat down at the computer with the intent to write, I’ve been blocked.

I’ve experienced this resistance in all of my writing assignments. My doctoral papers have gone incomplete, the dissertation research, at a halt. This resistance, the unwillingness inside of me is calling for recognition. The symptom is asking for a re-direction, a re-evaluation of my path.

So I began to listen…to hear the words I’ve refused to acknowledge. To allow the answers to penetrate me in the most intimate way. What is the “block” telling me? And whose words are being spoken? What am I afraid of?

The answers have not come forward yet. But it does not matter, for clarity often comes in just asking the questions. The willingness to be with having no answers is where healing occurs. The capacity to surrender to “what is” often leads to transformation.

So going forward I will write what is present, real, and felt in my heart. Coming to the culmination of my PhD program, I am letting go of the need for quotes and references to the “experts” in the field. I am stepping into who “I” am, showing up with my heart, mind, body and soul. This blog will be a revelation of my personal transformation. The vessel for my alchemy. My Red Book.

I hope that the writings, reflecting the journey of a wounded healer, touch those places in your heart that need healing. I hope that through my suffering you will find meaning in your own.

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7 Responses to “The Blog of a Wounded Healer”

  1. Karen says:

    On "the block"…here is also an aspiring depth psychotherapist, living and breathing the "block" (once again in my life) in the form of my thesis. Meeting such resistance, and having worked with addiction in my training, the block itself became my topic. I'm examining it as a manifestation that comes out of a complex dynamic system (the psyche, or otherwise). I have called it "stuckness", having 4 qualities: meaningless repetition (the vicious hamste,r wheel), insatiability, isolative autonomy (it takes on a "life of its own"), and resistance to change. I see it now as a systems issue, not even a human one. I believe it is an archetypal pattern, that becomes maladaptive. Consider cancer (a clear example), addiction/trauma, and what I will call "vicious capitalism". And it actually occurs when chaos is treated as the enemy and pushed out of the system (ultimately impossible – natural patterns are an interplay of order and chaos). I'll leave it at that, welcome any thoughts if this resonates. Karen in Ojai, CA

  2. Rashin says:

    Hi Karen…your comments definitely resonated with me. I agree with you in that "chaos", the other side of eros, is part of the natural rhythm of life that we don't acknowledge. Similar to the dark shadowy material within ourselves that's usually externally projected. I like your acknowledgement of the block as an archetypal pattern. Like others, once it's recognized and accepted, it will lose its power and obsessive quality. I appreciate your thoughts on the post and look forward to future dialogue.

  3. katharyn says:

    Rashin AND Karen… Thank you so much for this post and comment. I am beginning to feel like the only member of my cohort that, two years later, is still struggling with the “demon thesis”. Of course, not truly demon, but there is a quality that could almost be taken as demonic, as Karen describes, that is meaninglessly repetitive and cyclical, isolative, and resistant.

    Thank you for just letting me see other humans wrestling with the depth psychological thesis and dissertation. I feel a bit refreshed and certainly willing to stay at it in the arena!!

  4. Katharyn,
    I have to say that I feel grateful in that my cohort are mostly feeling the struggle. I feel that when the work is real, there is often that oscillation between an easy flow and resistance. The key is to be open to the dance, so that what needs to come forth do so with grace and ease.

  5. Marcia says:

    I am curious – what makes you a wounded healer. Why wounded? What is the healing part of you?

  6. this site says:

    Nicely put my friend……..I couldn’t have said it better. I never read more than a shred of Jung’s postulates here and there but what little I did read always spoke of increasing dimension…..endlessly.

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